Laid to Rest

I meant to blog earlier just didn't find the time to do it.

Kiersten Rylee Peterson was laid to rest Friday October 19th, 2007 at 1pm in Mesa City Cemetery. She had the tiniest casket. It was pink fuzzy on the outside and silky white on the inside.

We got to see her again... just an hour before the funeral. It was amazing. We put all the gifts from family. She has about 4 teddy bears, 3 baby dolls and more jewelry than I wear. LOL a baby diamond ring and 3 charm necklaces.

I can just picture her in heaven having little tea parties with her teddies. I wonder do they serve red wine and bread to infants in heaven? Or does she get grape juice? **grins**

As for my mental health... Im doing pretty well. Yes I cry...Alot...usually alone in the shower. But I get up in the morning. I still laugh and crack jokes. I still go shopping for groceries and shower daily. I dont pop pills or hide behind a nice bottle of Jack. I have alot to live for... My husband... my children... my family. And I know that my baby girl wouldnt want me to wallow in self pity. She would want her mommy to continue to be a mommy.

She was there at the funeral... her spirit was there. I almost fainted. I leaned against my husband and he held me up. I looked up...

I see her tiny casket... the beautiful blanket of pink mini roses that laid across. There she was... a tiny lavender blue butterfly... no bigger than a dime. It had golden edges on its wings. It just fluttered from pink rose to pink rose. I knew it was her. It made me smile. She was letting me know... its okay.

I am ready to live again.